One versus 7 billion
aka Me against the world...aka How to fight apathy
You know, I was fine with losing the first 25 pounds by March. I was okay with keeping my weight where it was in mid-April. But, now I'm insecure all over again about my weight. I don't know if it's because I stopped going to the gym on a daily basis (stupid finals time), or being more aware of everything now that I've lost weight, or being more self-conscious because I have a boyfriend, or if it's my brain's way of being like, "HEY, YOU'RE NOT DOING ANYTHING!"
You know, I only get myself into trouble when I start comparing myself to other people, or degrading my personal victories with the magnitude of other peoples' personal victories. Let's face it... everyone is different. My losing 25 lbs is on the same level as someone else losing 15 lbs or 50 lbs. Why? Because I set my mind to a goal, I accomplished it, and I've kept it up. [In this case, I use "kept it up" in the loosest sense... I haven't lost any more weight since I stopped going to the gym, but I haven't gained any more weight either.]
I'm starting back at the gym on the first day of summer school (May 14th). I don't need any fanfare, or a support group, or pre-packaged meals, or magical pills and shakes, or surgery. I just need a
No day but today, right? :)
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