the joys of depression
- My hair is falling out
- I constantly look like I have 2 black eyes without makeup
- My eyes are yellowing
- I sleep a lot and don't eat OR I eat a lot and don't sleep
- I feel like destroying everything (I'm talking fire, sledgehammers, and axes "destroy everything") OR I feel like crying all the time
I really think my only real option is medication. Today, Mom asked me why I was always down on myself, and I couldn't really give her an answer. It's true, I can't give an answer as to the continual cause of my ongoing depression. I know that it began after grandma passed away, but 99 times out of 100 I can talk or think about her dying without any kind of crying or anything. I don't understand myself anymore. The days that I am happy are few and far between. The happiness is not put-on at all; when I am happy I feel genuinely happy. I just don't know.
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Maybe we should hang out more and then you'll be less depressed. i'm sorry i didn't get to talk to you much at SWEet lunch. I didn't see you after I went thru the line. I even looked thru the kitchen window. It was nice to see you for a few seconds. I hope you cheer up. I miss having Simone in my life!
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