Negativity...
I don't like the way my life is headed right now...I'm broke. And bad with money... gosh. I'm dreading school, even though it starts in August. I dunno how I'm going to pay for it, since the one job that I LOVE I can't work at for the next year. I don't know where else I'm going to work to make money because I can't pay for much more than school with my co-op money. I'm a fat kid. I'm severely disorganized, but I don't know if I care or not. Really, I pretend not to care about much to anyone. Most people just see it as me being "busy" or "laid back" or whatever. A few people see through it, but no one says anything... a pink elephant in the room type of situation.
I'm too self-conscious.
I want to change myself a lot, but I can't do everything at once. And I have to make changes that will stick if I really want it to work. I just need to be comfortable with myself. I used to be... about 65 lbs ago. But the weight's not all of it. It's just one thing less that I have to be self-conscious about...
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