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I like the cold weather. Somehow, I feel it brings me closer to my bed. When I tuck myself in at night, I clutch my body pillow a little closer. When I sit in front of the fireplace, I fall asleep safely wrapped in my blanket or in my comforter. When I do homework, I lean against my wedge pillows and wrap myself in my comforter like it's a shawl. I heart my bed. :D Maybe I should just date my bed... I can cry on my bed's shoulder any time; my bed is never asleep when I want to talk or in class while I'm not or on the cell phone.

I don't know what my deal is. I'm really, really, really in a bad mood. I know that I'm upset because I get bored easily because I get lonely... but I can only do so much to alter that. I talk to Tony on a regular basis (like twice a week). Although it's bad for my sleeping schedule, he always makes me feel better (along with Brent, Niel, and Mark... it's just that Tony is always there so I always talk to him). I used to have this little group and we would do stuff together a lot and it was quite fun... but now we all see each other too much (like living together, being in the same classes, similar interest groups, etc). That's why I'm trying to get involved in different groups (like joining a sorority, being in commonGround, etc), but none of them are really clicking yet.

In other news, it's about that time to start studying for finals. By the time Thanksgiving break rolls around, I want to have studied for all my finals for at least two hours per class (that's 13 hours, minus a lab and BDC, so 11... 22 hours). I really don't want to do badly this semester. I want my grades to rock. Maybe if I spend my time studying, I'll forget about having fun and friends so I won't have time to be depressed, just to study, work, and sleep. *sigh* Sounds boring, but I have to do what I have to do, right?

In more different news, I'm really motivated to go to Fencing now. I went to watch the Fencing World Cup at the Galt House today and it was really intriguing. I want to be that good. And that fast. Boys lunge funny. :)

Okay, final thought. I need to shower and go to bed. I have to get up early so I can get my hair done. It looks rough...

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 12:40 AM