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I had to refresh blogger 5 times before I could get a fully functional page. What the hell! Anyway, on to my life story.

I feel lonely. I don't know if I want to escape the lonliness quite yet. It feels like everyone is paired or grouped off, whether it's romantically or not. Somehow, I think when I'm actively looking for someone to be in a romantic relationship, people sense this aura of not really wanting to be in a relationship. I don't know how it happens, but it does. I feel so lonely that I can't go to bed at night. It's like... I don't have anyone anxiously waiting for me in the morning, so why go to sleep? *shrug* Sometimes, I don't really think I'm looking. I don't need to be with someone, that part of myself that creates happiness is with someone else right now. I'm just here to make sure everyone else is doing well. And if someone is not doing well, I am the epitome of the shoulder to cry on. I've got listening down so well that I don't really know what to say totally unprompted when someone asks about my life.

I need a new layout, but I don't know what I want it to be yet. Even if I did, I don't have enough time to change it quite yet. Though, if anyone has suggestions, feel free to suggest them to me.

Words of Wisdom for the day
You cannot carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. If you are, you have to let something go. You cannot hold on to your own troubles and everyone else's at the same time; eventually, you will break from being trampled on by people who take you for granted or from carrying too much and not letting enough go. Yes, it is about the hard work. But go have fun for a little while. Even if it is only for 30 minutes. Turn on your favorite song and sing and dance. Watch your favorite movie. Call a friend you've not talked to recently. Take a walk. Read a book. Do not try to be superhuman. People will begin to think you are less-than-human.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 11:54 PM