Since when did 'boring' and 'mature' become synonymous?
This title reflects the recent frustrations over the past few 'critiques' that I've received from job interviewers through my co-op advisor. She's said, more than once (about three times, actually), that although I have pretty good interviewing skills, interviewers keep saying that I seem immature. I think that I've been doing a kick-ass job in my interviews, and that I've been very professional but at the same time not acting like I have a stick in my butt. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder, I guess. Maybe these companies are looking for someone that will fit in with the current mold that's been set by previous co-ops or current employees (co-op or not). Maybe I am immature, who really knows?I think one reason why interviewers think I'm immature is they look at my transcript and see 80+ hours and think, "Okay, she's about to be a senior... wait, this is only her first co-op? Jeez, she hasn't even taken any REAL classes yet!" I wish that I could put a note that says, "Hey, I'm trying to be a double major, that's why I have lots of hours that don't seem like they're going anywhere right now... and guess what else, I would have gone on co-op a lot sooner, or at least taken more high-level classes if my grandmother hadn't died at the beginning of the summer semester!" But I can't. And I don't really feel like crying in front of an interviewer so IF I get asked, I just say that I'm working on two majors.
I have ONE opportunity left to get a co-op job. If it doesn't work out (it's not looking too promising right now), then I can just keep working on the Spanish degree next semester, focus on Engineering over the summer, and then try to get a co-op job for the fall again. *sigh* I'm going to be in school forever and a day, I swear.
I've been crying for like half of the day. I want to go home, but I can't because I have a final tomorrow and Wednesday, and then I have volunteering with SWE on Saturday that I REALLY don't want to back out of, so I won't get to go home until Monday or so (because the church play is this upcoming Sunday and my parents have to work Monday). But if I don't go home, I have to ask my mom for money AGAIN because nothing is open on campus (West Cafe is a stupid freaking waste of space if it's NEVER OPEN... money grubbing bastards). I don't want to ask Mom for money because it's that holiday time of year and the more money I ask from my parents, the less money they have to get my car fixed or get me another car (which I'll really need if I get this co-op job). Also... seeing Sherry and Jen P being attached at the hip is precious, until I realize that I want to have someone that I can constantly hang out with that wants to hang out with me constantly too. *shrug* It's just whatever I guess. I haven't really been in a good mood lately, in case you couldn't tell. Cracking on yourself is the new cool thing to do... it's about the only fun I have anymore.
I don't want to study at all, anymore, EVER... but I know that I have to so that I can get good grades and get my scholarship back so that my parents (and everyone for that matter) will get off my freaking case for the millionth time about my grades.
See ya on the 25th, I guess...
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